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c Tuesday, April 29, 2008 d

Notice Me by NB RIDAZ

(heartaching)

(NB ridaz)Ohh I want to let you know

That I'll always love you baby

(Angie)Sometimes I think about

Everything that we've been through

And I pray that you would just open your eyes

(NB Ridaz)I love you (I love you baby, I love you to girl) I need you (I need you too)

So please don't throw our love away (forgive me girl, Don’t throw our love away)

(Nb ridaz)Since the day you and I snuck away to be alone

I knew from that night something special went on

It must have been the first kiss

You told me that nobody else in the world made you feel this

I felt the same way too but nothing stays the same

I'm sorry for the tears I'm sorry for the pain

You were the one that always made things right

I promise you this though you got a friend for life

Maybe one day we can try it again

And maybe things can be a little different

So lets just kiss and say goodbye

Cuz I really cant stand the pain of seeing you cry

(angie)I've given everything (given everything)

I loved you endlessly

But when it comes to me

You don't even notice me

I've given everything (yeah)

I loved you endlessly (oooh)

But when it comes to me

You don't even notice me

[i love this part sooo much by angie]

(NB ridaz)All that's mine is yours that's what I said

Treat you with love and respect in everyway

You wanted I gave you need me I was there

Now you treat me like if I'm not here

I love you and I need you don't want to let go

If you want somebody else please let me know

Can't take it no more I feel I'm dying inside

Is this the price I pay for handing you my life?

I know I'm not perfect but I truly care

So when you wake up one morning and I'm not there

Jus remember I loved you it will never be the same

Gave you everything and you threw it all away

(NB ridaz)I gave you my good and my bad My heart and my soul,

My trust my money my time, What more could you ask from a man

Even when times were hard I held out my arms and held you

Even accepted you through whatever weather

But now I'm feelin we're at the end of the road

Whatever we had now I got to let go

Nights like this I wish raindrops would fall

To cover my tears

Wishing I could replace all those wasted years

Of loving someone who couldn't love me back

And now again I got to start from scratch

But I know I've given you my everything

-like this song.. how true..-

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26 april saturday

watched Forbidden Kingdom @ Causeway Point

fantastic movie.. i would rate it 3.5 stars.. watched with sabirah n shijin..

"Gate of no gate" wad a name ! sabirah was like saying cant they even come up with better name? LOL.. there are always jokes of the movies.. applies to "The Leap Year" too.. haha !!

if anyone has not catch it, watch it now.. kinda worth it.. =)

in the midst of the movie, the grandma who sat behind me was talking loudly with her daughter in dialect.. zzz.. seriously liu yi fei's articulation is gd..as compared to jackie chan n jet li.. well well liu yi fei studied in overseas b4 for years.. that explained it.. =)

had dinner n hearty chat again.. i was really random in topics.. that's wad many ppl had commented.. wahaha.. cant help.. im fully of nonsense i should say.. LOL..

wish for more outings.. =)

28april monday

1st day of sch for yr 3

monday blue? i was rather pissed off by the warm weather cos i was perspiring profusely.. waited for more than 30mins for my bus to come.. the bus took million yrs to travel to nyp..

turned off by the photocopying shop aunty again ! if not for the lec notes, seriously i wont even take a second glance at her ok !! wad the hell..

but was back to normal mood when i saw a grp of familiar faces.. i dunno how to spell their names but really glad to see them.. saw many CSC ppl.. hahaha !! excited ..

1st lesson - MR TAN !! alright by all means laugh laugh laugh.. haha.. shijin still asked me how was the 1st lesson with MR TAN.. well.. no comments..

while waiting for my damn athletic fren (weini), i had a nice chat with shijin n jazz..

aft that i went to gym for warm up b4 running with weini.. 2km on threadmill, some mins on cycling n stepping up.. ran 2 rounds in stadium with weini for her warm up n campus route (2.4km) for actual run..

in total i guessed i ran more than 4km .. wonder where i gt my energy to run.. that crazy weini still ran campus route twice.. wad the.. aft that we still ran 1round in stadium for cooling down.. really exhausted.. but was perked up when she commented that my speed n stamina improved.. =) i was perspiring like the rate of water tap running on by itself..

amazed by gal's power ! weini can really run.. envy her.. i was even surprised that eve said she wanna swim n she went for it .. how cool ! sms __ n she replied.. seldom gt such instant reply.. contented =)

had dinner n ended my day just like this..

tue having joanne chua's lec.. wonder if i will slp.. =x

alright im bushed.. gd nite n swt dreams to all ppl..

-randomness-

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c Friday, April 25, 2008 d

mayb this is for u..

viewing ur blog.. so much thoughts.. 'notice me' tis song came to my mind..

superman n eeyore r just pure coincidence..

being called as superman in bsu alr cos i wore the shirt..

like eeyore aft my fren gt me one..

wadever stated at ur blog match my liking n preference..

just pure coincidence..

perhaps u still cant gt over S..

of cos.. S is such an ideal lover..

candles n gift.. ur frens even helped S to bluff u..

gave u everything in 7.. how sweet..

i dun even noe wad i can give u..

but for serious.. my concern to u will be my 1st promise..

i told u abt the chalet thing on msn alr.. wanna give u hug as fren.. just to defend u from the cruelty of truth that u have been facing..

ytd n today rot at home.. keep thinking of u till i fall aslp again n again..

but i just noe so lil abt u..

-helpless..sink in an ordeal of mental anguish

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c Monday, April 21, 2008 d

saturday

went to sabirah's chalet to celebrate her mum who received award.. congrats !

recently i keep doing all the BBQ thing.. haha fun la in fact..

then sabirah, shijin n joanne went to take cake..

i dunno how much is the cake.. but guess is kinda ex.. somemore im the one who helped in choosing.. must pay her.. =)

aft eating, the 4 of us had a gd chat.. random topics.. im always random.. HA..

surprisingly, shijin still remembered that i like to watch gore movie.. adore her !! HAHA..

joanne, remember wad i told u on msn? LOL.. nice to noe u guys.. =)

gt tis weirdo kept looking at joanne..

well, i had bottle in my hand.. HA..

while waiting for hammy's bro to come, we were like talking abt shijin's weight.. Mm.. cant really rem the exact thing that we were talking abt.. but i guessed the nearest weight.. so i was like saying shijin is MY GAL, i just need to hold her waist n i can estimate.. tis triggered them to laugh till they bent n shout (unbelievable that i would say that).. wad.. im joker u see.. LOL..

best part was that shijin helped to massage my shoulders..

i was really tired..

but we still played monopoly till 3am.. zZz..

no way that i could hang on any longer..

i slept beside joanne..

suddenly i mentioned the way me n joanne slp was like newly wed couple.. nervous..

HAHA.. gosh this triggered them to laugh again..

i laughed till i was half awake..

they said i was really sound aslp.. Mm..

breakfast with them n sabirah's mum n bro...

how i wish we can start our own chalet..

but yr 3 coming la.. idiot leh..

time machine.. can i buy? LOL..

movie n slping at shijin's hse on thurs.. whoo!! guys i will update u all alright on wad plan we gonna have on thurs.. =)

-happy-

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c Monday, April 14, 2008 d

13 APRIL, EAST COAST

met hammy, rq, zhiwei n yiling at yck b4 taking bus to east coast. it took more than 1hr to reach there. pretty warm weather.. saw shujuan at the bbq pit and kinda catch up quite alot with her..

in the midst of bbq-ing, the rest went to somewhere that left me, rq and shujuan at bbq pit there.. aft they came back, the 3 of us went to restroom.. then when we went back, i heard them singing bday song with cake prepared.. gosh, i really gt many surprises for this yr.. really shocking..

-many sms & wishes from frens, gifts & cakes.. bro even sent me sms la.. haha..

thought i dun wanna gt tipsy as mentioned earlier on.. but since is my bday then i kinda heck care.. should go easy on Absolut but i kept topping up my cup.. even took some wadever alcohol from eve..i guess i blunt out my own thing that were not meant for certain ppl to noe.. damn alcholic drinks.. but i was not as 'high' as shang and eve.. ha.. these 2 crazy fellows were drinking so fast like no ppl's biz..

played 'truth or dare' and 'i've nv done..' games.. fun to have drinking session near beach and playing interesting games.. thrilling.. but vulnerability came into us the more we had our drinks.. i noe myself that i was pretty emotional that night too.. and i admit that i became daring in saying things that usually i didnt say.. so did the rest..zhiwei finished up the drink 1st.. hooray !!

continue drinking even when eve was knocked out and yiling sleeping in the tent.. shang n elle were sitting at the shore.. left me, hammy n rq at the bbq pit.. i talked more abt personal thing to them.. hope u guys r not shocked by wad i said regarding DBS Team alright? hammy n rq were like keep pressing me for ans.. gosh.. embarrassed ok.. guess i was crapping, abit too 'high' but definitely sober.. felt like puking n i noe i was liable for all tis.. blah.. finished the whole bottle of Absolut !! cheers !!

went to slp in the tent at 3am.. woke up at 6am.. some idiotic ppl took away our drinks during our slp.. they r soooo pathetic.. so me, rq, yiling n hammy wanna share cab.. so we took cab to woodlands n the 2 dropped off 1st.. went to causeway point for breakfast with rq.. tried out the latest mc griddles..

whole thing was pretty fun.. wonder when will we ever have such outing again.. haha..

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c Saturday, April 12, 2008 d

Yummy !!

wad the.....sooo random can... haha

taken by me !

Mmm.. Smug eh? LOL !!

alright i look retard.. LOL..

pose for the sake of posing.. haha

my frenship cheque !!

frenship cheque.. me, sj n sab gt it from jo!!

the 4 of us..

haha.. sabirah like to lean on joanne..

y shijin wanna squat down abit..? haha

DUN JUMP DOWN !!

HAHAHA!!

wad?! our..shoes..wadeva..

me n sabirah.. love this pic..

too bright of the flash..

haha sj is lying on the floor.. gosh !!

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12 APRIL, 5PM, VIVO, SECRET RECIPE

went to dinner with joanne and sabirah..
i thought joanne was late so me n sabirah went to shop at bookstore 1st..
joanne handed me ADIDAS BAG as present for me.. !! LOL..

when we were seated down at secret recipe, i realized there was no menu but i didnt say anything.. then someone said "this is the menu, may i have ur order?"
so i replied ok and when i turned ard i saw SHIJIN !! haha !! wad a surprise for me.. i was anticipating her for today's outing but she rejected me several times.. so i gave up the thought that she would appear for dinner.. so when shijin appeared I felt as if I was dreaming.. whenever I scold shijin heartless, they tried very hard not to laugh in front of me.. haha..

but I didn’t noe that they have been planning since march alr.. gosh..
i was really loss for words.. that kind of inexplicable feeling is hard to describe..

From the cost of present to the cost of food and to the effort in planning & organizing the dinner really made me very touched.. ehh i dunno why i pay so little for the cost of food.. but sincerely thank you so much..
-adidas bag(joanne,shijin,sabirah,pohyee,lena n yiling), box with messages written by shijin n sabirah and frenship cheque by joanne..

joanne did drop some hints in sch for few times but i still didnt catch it.. haha..
aft reading the messages in the box, my tear ducts r active n i no longer can control anymore..
in fact when having dinner, i tried hard to hold back tears alr.. haha..
-having dory with lobster sauce and TIRAMISU CAKE WITH CANDLE !!

THANK YOU SO MUCH ! simply dunno how to say.. the whole thing is really wonderful..

HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY TO ME !!

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c Tuesday, April 8, 2008 d

went to see doctor just now..
eyes brightened up by a young n pretty lady(nurse)..
she smiled n greeted me..
nv encountered such privilege from clinic b4..
wad surprised me the most was that she perfect in CRM.. LOL..
she smiled to every customer.. very courteous too..
when my turn to pay up, she took my money with both hands..
what really perk me up was that aft she explained the dosage intake for each medicine, she handed me the medicine n ended by saying "thank you, get well soon.."
nv in my life had i experienced such thing la..
damn perfect in CRM..

talking abt CRM reminded me of yr3.. Zzz.. timetable not bad.. but.. hais..
why so fast.. i saw new batch having their orientation outside csc.. i was like thinking to myself "huh everything just passed so fast.." somemore gotta teach new batch of csc ppl.. Zzz..

nice to meet u guys.. =)
remember to say hi ..
dun pretend pretend nv see ar.. LOL..!!

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c Monday, April 7, 2008 d

if u noe the procedure of calling corporate, u will noe the frustration n anger in me..
vulgarity has came out from my mouth occassionally.. but for today only.. ha..
i do not mind calling if my throat is in a gd condition..
but currently my throat is NOT AT ALL..
imagine i have to repeat n repeat before reaching to the person in charge and my throat is protesting furiously for speaking too long at one go..
thought i would be blessed with several survey forms.. then at least i noe all callings would have been worthwhile..
20 calls... 0 survey form.. how disheartened !
luck just don't seem to get into my way..
i talked to 2 or more lunatics !
they are....simply.....
loss for words..

met huanling for lunch.. sudden urge to meet up.. haha..
ugliest truth revealed..
we both got shock..
yet surprising that we shared the same sentiments aft all.. =)
hanging out with frens for fame? fortune? hypocrisy? or...whatever..
alright huanling..meet up more ok..?

been drinking 1.5L water since morning..
my mouth turned bland..
i just wanna have some taste in my mouth by eating one tiny M&M..
OBJECTIONS!!
well.. haha..
my bottle dented..
hammy n joanne laughed non stop.. -.-
im glad that many concerned me.. =)
not so bad for the day..
managed to get 1survey..
the person has a loose screw in his brain..
tired out by all these..

dinner: sushi !!
most suitable delicacy for me i supposed..
bonus of the day..

better day for tml.. LOL..
EQ test : 127
what the...

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c Saturday, April 5, 2008 d

8 more days to second decade..
on the day itself, csc is having bbq..
kinda interesting.. inexplicable feeling..
wondering wad we will do or chat throughout the nite..
but im not going to get myself drunk..
i will choose to explore certain areas or sit by the beach to have heart to heart chat..

thursday
feeback session.. i wonder.. who rank the last.. =X i noe it's provocative to say such thing but.. curiousity is there..
went gym.. do all kind of workout n no muscle ache..

friday
having team bonding games n badminton..
dunno y so hyper.. me n aisyah like damn crazy.. for wadever reasons we laughed like mad when we went to restroom.. LOL !!
quite fun to play games with teammates.. sweat it out !
exhausting.. esp for dodging game.. joanne, u r right.. aft cropping up in csc most of the time, and having snacks.. fat particles r finding ways to fit into my body.. LOL..
reminder to myself: get pic from eve

i have muscle ache.. guess i didnt warm up for badminton..
the ache is exactly the same as i had for bowling last time..
went to have dinner with joanne, hammy n Shijin @ causeway pt..
have the usual talk..
despite of my severe sore throat..
didnt make call at all !
mon i gonna have hard time..

yt.. csc almost going to end soon.. i only went out once with u.. somemore u r not going for bbq..
py.. i dun think i did go out with u during csc time..
when can we go out again..? 0.o LOL..

hungry hungry hungry.. but fri, sat,sun having feast.. tis few days cant eat that much... Mmm..

been quite a long while that eventually i stayed at home during weekend.. haa.. w/o internet it's a real bored..

oh ya.. havent think of wad to buy or treat myself to for my second decade.. alright signing off.. start planning now.. LOL..!!

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c Friday, April 4, 2008 d

whoo ! home internet is back to normal again ! LOL !

ytd.. alas i gt company for dinner.. ha..
went to starbucks ..
learnt so much things thru the conversation..
shocking of cos.. ha..

Sabirah .. pls be strong alright.. =)

i really dislike the feeling when something is stagnant there..
the talk mean nth?
i wondering only..
curious too..

reminisce so much when taking bus965 at blk825..
having this special feeling when taking bus965..

yet heartache too........

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c Thursday, April 3, 2008 d

yiting.. why.. hahaha.. i supposed her card to everyone make their day.. joanne was quite angry earlier on.. but aft yt gave the card to her..she's appeased.. LOL.. slacker leh u yt.. hahaha ! =x

oh ya eve just gave us tissue with some touching words.. why ar? today everyone so sentimental.. LOL.. but THANK YOU to the both of u.. =)

i told ms khoo that my phlegm has blood in it and she said as long as i dun cough blood, i still can call.. waaaah !! so unfeeling.. ha..

ytd i halfway walked out of the csc to talk to JK.. she talked to me during lunch n i gt stunned by her qn.. freaked me out.. haha.. aft tat we continue our conversation during afternoon breaktime.. kind of hit off well..

call call call..

eh Jk i think i must learn from u alr.. using ___. ha..
me n ____ didnt talk for few days.. dunno y oso..
yea u say take time.. no much time..
i oso can be on 24hrs standby..
blah wadever.. hahaha..
when i sing "wu gu" by cao ge, i gt scolding by joanne.. haha
when i sing "ai ai" by cao ge too, i gt scolding by lifen.. haha..
so..
well..
LOL..
i dun like the csc at level 4.. for certain reasons.. LOL..

guess i must go temple pray.. recently my mood isn't that gd.. luck oso not gd.. must sincerely go pray..

sian.. supposed to go out for dinner today.. but.. u guys heartless.. yes heartless !
tot of slacking somewhere else.. but everyone gt prog alr..
alright.. dinner i shall treat myself better.. =)

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c Wednesday, April 2, 2008 d

What Qiu Ting Means

People see you as a complete enigma, and only you truly understand who you are.

You spend most of your time introspecting and seeking truth.

You're a very interesting person... but not many people know you enough to realize it.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.

And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.

You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.

You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.

You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.

You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.

Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

zhiwei intro me the above test... 85% true i supposed.. ha..

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yiting tagged me to do.. she's a damn sincere fren.. for her i will do tis quiz.. LOL..

.If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
same as yt.. I will tell u when tt happens.
2.What will you do if you do not share the same feelings as the person who likes you?
0.o
3.Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
not exactly..for i always noe wad i really wanted..
4.What's your ideal lover like?
someone who can hit off well n share same sentiments..
5.Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone else?
wadeva..
6.If the person you like does not accept you, would you continue to wait for them to change their feelings?
perhaps? haha..
7.If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
target other ppl alr la.. haha..
8.Is there anything that has made you unhappy recently?
ha wad u think? =P
9.What do you want most in life?
frens of the same kind i supposed.. ha..
10.Is being tagged fun?
ha not bad.. like wad yt n her fren said.. the person tot of u..
11.If you find out that your best friend is going out with your boyfriend/girlfriend, how would you react?
Mmm..
12.Who is currently the most important person to you?
only the person noe.. ha..
13.What kind of person do you think I am?
oh i mentioned earlier on.. SINCERE, SENSIBLE n LOYAL fren.. =) oh ya superhyper too.. haha..
14.What is the most unforgettable thing/event in your life?
primary sch memories..
15.If the person you secretly like cannot recognise you, what would you do/how would you react?
smack the person..
16.Would you give your all in a relationship?
Mmm. gd qn.. mayb yes.. mayb no..
17.If you fall in love with two persons simultaneously, who would you pick?
Zzz..
18.What type of friends do you like?
same kind..
19.If you played a prank on someone, and he/she fell for the trick, what would you do?
i hate ppl playing prank on me seriously.. unless the prank leads to some surprise that i like.. ha..
::
1.steff (coolest.. haha.. happy? =P )
2.lena (erm.. violent?)
3.cl
4.beryl (steady gal)
5.april (always use towel to hit me! )
6.bek (pls dun be so dao.. just do this can.. haha)
7.celeste
8.sabirah (must do.. i dun care.. hahaha! )

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c Tuesday, April 1, 2008 d

yesterday..

i was rather bothered by certain things..
abt wad some ppl said..i shouldn't have made the call..
guess my ans is GIVE UP..
i sms yt.. cant take it at tat moment.. vulnerable especially when come to the nite..
she provided me some opinions.. glad to talk to her.. always lead me to other point of view..

i told my other frens today..
they asked me not to fret over it..
yup i shouldn't..
i should be happy..
PY said.. God give me something, He takes away something too..
joanne said.. she feel that poly frens r better than sec sch frens..
i feel that.. depends on fate..
u can meet lifelong frens in sec sch.. some in poly.. some even in pri sch..

i took chocolate muffin from joanne.. contented aft eating the muffin.. =)

i just wonder.. seriously.. do u guys even noe me..?

i quote wad steff always say.. " dun pretend u noe my story"
i wont go against my conscience and claimed the great deal of myself..
but just think wad has really goes wrong n that's that..

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been thinking of this song.. with you by chris brown

And I...
Will never try to deny
That you're my whole life, 'cause if you ever let me go, I would die...
So I won't front, I don't need another woman
I just need your all and nothing, 'cause if I got that
Then I'll be straight
Baby, you're the best part of my day

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