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Thursday, February 5, 2009
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Mad - Ne-Yo
i do anything to torture myself. im miserable.
u said it takes time and effort to put it down.
so as what others said too.
time will heal...find friends to go out.. dun listen to songs...etc..
but i just cant snap out of it.
exam coming.. remaining days are really countable..
when everyone is abt to retreat in life, i become lost and empty.
i dun wanna lose u. but always do things in spite.
and right now u dun even have anything to talk to me.
im a failure. really failed.
i have friends to encourage me so that i wont fall apart.
i have some universities in mind to keep me going on for the time being.
my friends told me their experiences, saw me cried......
but when night time strikes or when im alone, all emotions come in.
unbearable when i cant even talk to u.. i always wanna use a better tone and talk to u abt gd things but in the end i screwed up everything.
i dunno how to tell u my feelings.. but suicide did flash thru my mind.
im vulnerable. i loathe myself being like this.
in my eyes, u are attractive and therefore im jealous and envious of whoever trying to get near u.
honestly, im tired alr. u are too i suppose. but i told u b4.. it's kinky that i still want u back despite of what i have said and at night. im going to be a goner if i continue to behave like this. but i cant control my brain..
therefore this song, Mad by Neyo, is somehow telling our situation.. i miss those gd feelings with u. the telepathy and understanding between us. it is detrimental to health if one is being unhappy for long time. and my chest area is feeling numb at times and heart pain in cardiac sense. i can hardly breathe and slp..
i asked whether u still have feelings for me.. u said i should know the answer. I know the answer and is helpless cos i cant get u back anymore.
i wanna say this to people out there.. Please please please... TREASURE ! cos once u lost it, that's that. Friend C told me that sometimes one must wait till he/she lose somebody then they will feel the pain. Ya, that's when my regrets getting at me. im very tired now.. all i hope for is that we will still continue to keep in touch, just like how we behave on sat...
take care love. you are on my mind every now and then.....
jamming at Thursday, February 05, 2009
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