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Saturday, March 14, 2009
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it's been so long since the last post..
i was wondering who would ever view my blog alr.. haha..
i was wondering would ' =) ' view my blog..
it's amazing to noe time really flies and many events happened..
unfortunately, not a very good one for me..
i cried like dunno how many X times..
my heart ached like dunno how many X times..
i tortured myself with all sorts of nonsense like dunno how many X times..
as if there wasnt any glimpse of hope in my life..
i walked the places we went b4.. i listened to the songs so familiar..
though not lovey-dovey as what u claimed..
but to me, it's sweet.. cos it's u that i had at those moments..
but, all gone..
perhaps u did drop hints long ago..
i was dumb and didnt realize it..
that's why the truth seemed so harsh..
perhaps God sympathise me.
cos Mr. I appeared.
Mr. I shared his experience, asked me out and even intro me his friends.
thanks. =) really grateful.
but it wasnt easy for me to just move on like this..
Mr. I nv thought of giving up on me..
perhaps we shared the same situation.. that's why he can empathise me.
and Janice suddenly appeared in my life.
sometimes uh i really felt that God loves to play prank on me leh..
or He is trying hard to reinforce this phrase ' what does not kill you, makes you stronger. '
Mmm..
i went to club..
i thought i could be like them..
but someone came to my mind and i dun seem to be able to play and fling..
fucked up..
my world seemed to turn upside down..
WAKE UP LA !! sigh..
im really exhausted that suicidal thoughts keep floating on my mind..
i gonna break that bubbles..
i gonna improve..
but easier said than done..
whatever.....
I just dun feel good.
i dun like to be humiliated.
i dun like to be seen like a fool.
i dun like ppl to toy with my feelings.
I just hope that day will come................
-Am i a player? Can i be a player?-
jamming at Saturday, March 14, 2009
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